I have been seriously thinking about what I want to study next year. Something isn’t working and this year I have been so bored. I want to do everything at the same time. Stupid ADHD brain!
Today I have been coding on a web project, like a roleplaying world, and I’m thinking that I really want to learn more about coding. Like, I haven’t learned so much JavaScript yet, I only know a little, and it would be fun to learn more. At the same time I have registered for a herbalist course, and now I cannot decide what I really want to focus on.
This blog is a good example. I have written about how I’ve changed my studies multiple times now, from psychology, theology and an open degree to art school to herbalism… I’m just so confused. I have a hard time sticking to just one thing. And I think that’s why I never succeed in anything.
And from nowhere I now want to do computer science and programming. I know I have been interested in it for a while but I never thought I would actually want to study it. I also have a diploma course in psychology to complete… and herbalism. I’m so confused! I really need to explore what is my goal and why, and with that understand how I will proceed to pursuing my studies. Because I will never succeed by doing it all.
What’s good is that I have life time access on most my courses and that I can pause them to come back later. But I need to focus on one or maybe two things to study now. It’s so hard to narrow it down to just one or two things though. I’m passionate about sooooo many things!
What I already do daily is, however, computing stuff… So I wonder if it would be better to focus on that in studies as well? When I tried to study other things like herbalism, psychology and theology this year I could never really focus on that. Maybe I should study something I’m already naturally doing? The problem is that I change my mind all the time.
Here are some things I’ve done lately though.
I’m very basic when it comes to coding and design. I really want to learn more. It feels more entertaining than most other things I do… So could this be it? The one time I had a job it was actually in coding and design so is the a path I could pursue maybe? Because I have done it before… I have never done herbalism, psychology or theology before. Just computing. So it might be wise to choose a path I’m already familiar with and have some knowledge in…
This is hard. I always want to do everything and therefore ends up completing nothing.
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